Moving and Moving On

How many of you out there have had to move? Out of state? City? Country?

I've just recently moved from Florida to Colorado, leaving behind the love of my life and the greatest friends in the world. I've coped with it terribly; keeping a smile on my face in front of my mother, who dragged me out here because she missed it so much and then crying myself to sleep at night. I miss them terribly, I miss my love who I had to break up with. I now have one friend and it's the fourth week of school. She's clingy. She's annoying. She's boy crazy. I miss my old friends, I'm forgetting the exact color of my love's eyes and the exact sound of his laugh. I can't seem to move on, I think of them daily and it makes me sad that it's possible they have forgotten about me. It was me and my best friend's theory that life revolves around the people you revolve around. But who do I have now? Who does my life revolve around? I go to my secluded spot in the woods every day, a knife in my hand, contemplating what to do with it. I contemplate how this small steak knife could effect my life, if it would be a good thing or a bad thing. I'm afraid I'm becoming more sick in the head than I already was. I'm afraid the loss of everything I've ever loved is driving me to the brink, and it worries me even more that I somehow don't even care that I'm losing my mind. Please, help.